i wanna be anywhere but here.

I wanna run.
A mile.
‘Til I am frail.
I wanna fly.
Soar high.
‘Til my wings fail.

I wanna disappear.
In a blink.
Never reappear.
I wanna swim.
In tears.
Drown with all my fears.

I wanna march.
On fire.
Burn in agony.
I wanna jump.
Off a cliff.
Break from misery.

I wanna scream.
In grief.
‘Til I gasp to breathe.
I wanna hit.
The walls.
‘Til my fists bleed.

I wanna cry.
Like rain.
‘Til the pain gets drained.
I wanna rant.
Like wind.
‘Til the hurt is fadin’.

I wanna roar.
Like thunder.
‘Til it hurts no more.
I wanna be tossed.
Like waves.
‘Til the ache is thrown.

I wanna be silent.
Be mute.
‘Til silence consumes me.
I wanna be irate.
Be furious.
‘Til fury devours me.

I wanna close.
My eyes.
Never again open.
I wanna sleep.
So deep.
Never get awaken.

I wanna get trapped.
In darkness.
Never see light again.
I wanna get rapt.
Behind doors.
Never come out again.

I wanna hide.
Conceal.
Never be seen again.
I wanna leave.
Right now.
Never come back again.


*aleen_hurting. ='(

you win some, you lose some.

i guess you can never really have it all, you can never win all your battles. you win some, you lose some. one moment you're at the highest of highs, the next minute... at the lowest of lows. why can't everything just go as you want it... it's frustrating when you've put your best foot forward, like you've used every weapon you have so you'd go home with victory... but at the end of it all, you'd walk out from the battle field defeated. this sucks.

now tell me, when will my best be good enough?

*aleen_dim-witted. ='(

it's done,done,done, superwoman.

my sem's finally over... yeah.

after weeks of grueling school and not-so-school-works, it's finally summer break... [summer classes - a week from now] i feel good. heck, those 23 units almost killed me. but it's such a wonderful feelilng that i got to do everything i had to do with all the pressures and all the drama... it wasn't easy. it definitely wasn't fun... but to my surprise, i actually enjoyed all the puyatan, all the sacrifial-lamb moments, the bayani-moments, the one-man-team experiences. though it sucks to be doing everything alone when you're supposed to be doing it as a team, it taught me so much about myself and about people. i've discovered things i never thought i had in me all along. i feel invincible. like i can take the world on! that i'd call myself... superwoman! lol... hell yah, i am SUPER!

*aleen_SUPER!