we hit the bar. another night to party all out. everybody's up for fun. drinking hard. laughing harder. getting high and tipsy. dancing down and dirty. the music's blaring. the disco lights, blinding.
we enter a trance of full bliss. like there's no stopping the ecstasy. we drink and dance the night. like everything's fine and fancy. until the beer is down to its last drop. until the heart-racing music stops. all wasted. all tipsy. the dance floor, left empty.
then silence dawns on you. a sudden glint of reality strikes you. the show is over. open your eyes. put off your always-alright-guise. there's no escaping now. you thought that beer could wash away the pain. that in a few more shots, it will all go down the drain. you wish the lights could actually blind you. so you could quit pretending not to see. you wish the music would blare more loudly. to beat the sound of inside cries roaring unbearably.
you thought you could run from the truth. that your disguise was good enough. you thought you could go on denying. the existence of a cold hard fact. you play deaf from the screams inside you. play numb of the bleeding wounds hurting you. dismissing anything that reminded you. reminded you that damn it, you've been forever blue!
you thought that the night would rob the misery of your days. you thought.
you thought wrong.
*allyne_sober
we enter a trance of full bliss. like there's no stopping the ecstasy. we drink and dance the night. like everything's fine and fancy. until the beer is down to its last drop. until the heart-racing music stops. all wasted. all tipsy. the dance floor, left empty.
then silence dawns on you. a sudden glint of reality strikes you. the show is over. open your eyes. put off your always-alright-guise. there's no escaping now. you thought that beer could wash away the pain. that in a few more shots, it will all go down the drain. you wish the lights could actually blind you. so you could quit pretending not to see. you wish the music would blare more loudly. to beat the sound of inside cries roaring unbearably.
you thought you could run from the truth. that your disguise was good enough. you thought you could go on denying. the existence of a cold hard fact. you play deaf from the screams inside you. play numb of the bleeding wounds hurting you. dismissing anything that reminded you. reminded you that damn it, you've been forever blue!
you thought that the night would rob the misery of your days. you thought.
you thought wrong.
*allyne_sober
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