iskang aquarius

Aquarius - January 31, 2009

The Bottom Line

Explore some volunteering opportunities and see how you can impact your community.

In Detail

The kind and generous compromiser inside of you is taking over today, filling your heart with altruism and your mind with the urge to help other people in a more significant way. This is the day to explore some volunteer opportunities and see how you can impact your community. Get the word out to your friends and family and find out who's with you in your new quest to make the world a better place. You will probably be more surprised by who refuses than by who accepts your invitation.

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sa mga nakasama kong iskolar ng bayan sa isang makabuluhang araw na ito, salamat sa inyo. itaguyod ang prinsipyo ng tunay na serbisyo!

*allyne_tunay.palaban.makabayan.

a fresh start...

starts today...

orange.

A: u think this is right? i mean... this?

O: are you happy?

A: yah!

O: i am happy. then this is right.


*allyne_ryt.

next time.

i should've said no when i had the chance.
shouldn't have never let you in.
this. this is what i get for believing.
a lie.

well maybe next time... there won't be a next time.

'i hate this part right here..."

so this is where the end begins...

we knew it would come to this. but i guess there's really nothing that could have prepared us for this moment. i hate to look you in the eyes. for the loneliness that surrounds them would only break my heart. i hate to hold your hand. for i may not find the courage to let you go. i hate the mere thought of you leaving. and the truth that sooner or later, you'll leave me... alone.

it hurts me so much that i have to go through my everyday life without you. all the things we used to do, places we used to go... well maybe i'd just cry while the sound of your laughs echo in my head. or laugh alone while our memories flash before my eyes.

this isn't for good i know. coz what we have is something that defies space and time. and this part right here we know is inevitable. we may part ways for now but the roads each of us will take won't have a dead end. and somewhere in the crossroads of life, we'll meet again.

i sure am gonna miss you...badly!!!
i'll try my best not to kill myself!


*allyne_why do all good things come to an end...

invincible! invisible?

sometimes it's so damn hard to be strong. when people see you as someone who knows it all, someone who does it all, someone invincible! ...they tend not to care if you're okay. you can handle everything all by yourself anyway, why would they bother.

i grew up fighting my battles alone... or at least that's how it feels. the last thing i'd do when troubled, would be to wave the white flag or shout SOS! asking for help is the one thing i never learned. i'd rather burden myself than call a friend or tell the world i'm not alright. and so the birth of the martyr me.

i have this terminal disease of always pushing myself to the limit. it has spread all over my system, i can't fight it. i wanna do everything! know everything! wanna be always on the loop. i'm always on top of my game! this urge to be the best of what i can be is overwhelming that it doesn't permit even the slightest sign of vulnerability. of weakness.

but it isn't always fun. you're always the tough one. the one to run to when a friend needs someone. the good listener and the great adviser. the one who always saves the day. your friends need not say a word, and you're there to the rescue. everybody's crying shoulder. everybody's best friend. everybody's... except yourself. the strong facade blinds the people around you from seeing you as if you're invisible.

weakness needs support. but what people don't realize, strength needs more.


*allyne_ "i need someone who really sees me..." ='(

airtime.

a song composed by the ST Seniors for our ever dearest ma'm carla.
performed jan.17 @ ma'm jen's surprise bridal shower slash the seniors' send-off slash ma'm carla's super surprise birthday bash!

para sayo to mudra! mahal ka po naming lahat!


*to the tune of Toyang by E-heads

airtime

airtime... lagi na lang airtime...
airtime... si carla edith yan...

teacher namin, majuba nga lang
carla, carla, carla, carla, matinik to
pati sa tsismisan

haggard man kami, laging sama sama
stress, stress, stress! sa sds
si mam carlang nakaka-stress
wow, wow, wow, kay carla bow
kay mam carla lahat ay bow
pengeng uno nasa langit na ko
wag lang singkong masakit sa ulo
klase, workshop, di pwedeng mamiss
late na late na di pa rin dismiss
love namin si carla
pagka't sya'y aming mudra
kahit anong problema
basta't kasama kayang-kaya!

_madalas man kaming walang pera
makita lang ang kislap sa kanyang mga mata
kami ay busog na!

carla, carla
we love you
carla, carla
we'll miss you
carla, carla
we love you
carla, carla
we'll miss you!

teacher namin, majuba nga lang
carla, carla, carla, carla, matinik to
pati sa tsismisan

haggard man kami, laging sama sama
stress, stress, stress! sa sds
si mam carlang nakaka-stress
wow, wow, wow, kay carla bow
kay mam carla lahat ay bow

love namin si carla
pagka't sya'y aming mudra
kahit anong problema
basta't kasama kayang-kaya!

*audio and video to follow (seniors, kelan recording?) =p

midnight blues...

• "and i'm back in the game i can't seem to win..." -foolish heart (?)

• "kasalanan bang matulog? watdahel." -my aching head

• "let go...when the you're hurting way too much and hanging on won't do you any good..." -kapatid @ brahma kumaris

• Expectations. Assumptions. Kill them. They're deadly. -dramaqueen
  

• happy birthday iyabear!!! ;) -nagmamahal na sis
  

• "gawin mo na ko. now na." -policy paper to allyne

• another mocha fraj. please!!! -exhausted me

• "i'm letting go! or... maybe later?" -stupid me

• "acad mode activate!" -nagpapanggap me
  

*allyne_nahihilo.nalilito.

midni

the Wolf Moon and my Lunatic Self.

The biggest and brightest moon of twenty-ow-nine rises tonight!

"Saturday night (Jan. 10) the moon will be at perigee, the closest point to us on this orbit. It will appear about 14 percent bigger in our sky and 30 percent brighter than some other during 2009, according to NASA."

i'm a self-confessed LUNATIC... figuratively of course. or medically, pwede din!

i go crazy over Mr. Moon, no matter what phase he's in... favorite ko si crescent moon... but nothing beats a big, bright full moon! crazy kase, i talk to him..hahaha... and his stars! i spend hours by the window or by the shore just staring at the dark sky, especially when i crave for some quiet time alone...just a moment of escape from this busy world. there was i time na everyday ko xang pini-pichuran kahit di naman ma-capture...harhar. sunset lang kaya ng powers ni digicam eh. hehe.

it's interesting that full moons have names pala! this tradition dates back to the Native Americans or the now Northern and Eastern United States. amazzing... this month's is named as the WOLF moon. for february, it's SNOW moon! wow. i love it!

so the moon will be at it's fullest tonight! for my fellow lunatic friends (esp. irene and iya) make sure to catch him! pakabaliw tayo..haha. well sana lang the sky is clear! super ulan pa naman ng ulan! rawrrr.

*shoutouts:

• mr. moon - c yah tonight!
• twin sis - literal na mr. moon ha.. hindi si...

*more lunacy @ SPACE.com